Day 6

From 40 days of Joy-filled life by Tommy Newberry

- your written goals are your headlines for the future. Make them captivating, and you'll rise above and beyond your previous best ... And breathe in much more joy along the way.
-Goal setting is an essential tool for disciplining your mind to focus on what is lovely , excellent , and worthy of praise

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Day 5

Fron 40 days to a Joy-filled life by Tommy Newberry

-As a proactive thinker, you decide that no matter what is going around you, you are not going to allow it to change what is going on inside you
- often, though we give people in our lives consent to make us angry

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Evil in white robe

I am watching The Keepers in Netflix and I am just on episode 2 and I could not continue watching anymore. The evil things that the priest do to the students are just too much.
I know there are a lot of priests, pastors probably even rabbis and imams that are supposed to show or guide us to holiness are doing evil things. But it really I guess never dawned to me that they could do it seemingly without even a shred of regret, shame or conscience.
This is exactly what for me is what they mean when some people say what do you need hell for if evil is around us.
I was raised Catholic with respect to priests well actually anyone working closely with the Church. But about 2.5 years ago, I lost faith in institution due to a priest who we asked for help due to a financial issue I am having. After some "scolding" which I deserve, he offered to give help by providing me a loan. No issues there since he mentioned that since it is quite a huge amount he would also take this as a loan from their cooperative bank for priests which offers much less interest than the regular banks. I agreed, he computed the interest and how much should I pay every month and for how many years. Trusting that he is a man of God. I did not check for myself how much it would actually amount to. All that I felt that time was that I was relieved. It was a weekend when I asked for himself knowing that banks would usually take 3-5 banking days to process anything, I was assuming it would probably get 1 week the earliest to get the money. But following Monday came and he said he will use his personal money first so that I would at least be unburdened with worry. That's when I realized, he would not get a loan from his bank, but will use his personal money and I will be paying him interest. Not really bad I guess anyway if I go to the bank myself I woulf also have to pay for interest. But when I got to computing how much it will be when I finally pay everything off, it is really like getting a loan from a bank!
That' s the start of when I totally lost respect and trust for these men in white robes. Considering this priest is my husband's uncle, that we approached him for help because we don't know want to be further burdened with bank interest. This priest is well off mind you, he has a lot of properties because to be fair, he was working well as an accountant before joining priesthood. I am not questioning his wealth but how can he do this to an -in law. Don't they preach something about not kicking a man when he is already down? Because that is exactly what felt to me, he was kicking me and with that kick he is earning a little for himself.
I know what happened to me is nothing compared to what those poor students experienced, but I just wanted to say that these priests some would argue are still human and can make mistakes. Yes, they can certainly make mistakes but they can definitely be evil too.

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Day 4

From 40 days to a Joy-filled life by Tommy Newberry

A joy filled life is the result of joyous decades, joyous years, joyous months, joyous weeks and joyous days. But you can live a joy-filled life only one day at a time.

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Migraine

My head is starting its act again. I have observed for the last couple of months that I experience headaches, terrible ones approx. One week before my period. But today is already my 3rd day on my period so was not expecting this terrible headache. The last neurologist I went to gave me an "anti-migraine" med that actually made it worse. I actually felt the room spinning when I took it.
Its very frustrating when doctors can't help you. If i had the financial means, i would do everything just to feel better. My shoulder blades are killing me too. Probably which causes me the headaches too. Same case here too, i even had an orthopedic that told me"what do you want me to do? Prescribe you painkillers?" I believe he thinks i am just a drug addict out for painkillers for a high so even if he knows that advil no longer works for me (since I have visited him a couple times already and had 6 therapy sessions) prescribed just that.
Difficult when people judge you right away because you are not rich so elitist.

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Day 3

From 40 days to a Joy-filled life by Tommy Newberry


You will always have something to complain about and you will always have some blessings to count.

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Day 2

Dec 27 2018- Day 2
From 40 days to a joy-filled life by Tommy Newberry:

- Gratitude is a choice. It is a conscious and deliberate decision to focus on lifes's blessings rather than its shortcomings.
- when you focus on your blessings, your life feels abundant. When you focus on what's missing, life feels incomplete.

40 days to a Joy filled life

So now I will restart to read this book by Tommy Newberry, "40 days to a Joy-filled life". I bought this book probably over a year ago, starting readong but did not finish it. I can't remember in what day I stopped. It s a self help book duh hehe, with the idea that you should just read one chapter at a t9me for 40 days. Accorsing to the author, the book is written to help the reader put the 4:8 principle into practice in your everyday life... for the rest of your life.
The 4:8 principle, still according to the author is based on Philippians 4:8 that states that whatever you give your attention to expamds in your experience. If you dwell on your strengths, your blessings, your goals and all the people who love you, then you will attract even more blessings even more love and even more accomplishments. Hmm.. seems a lot like "The Secret".

So now as I try to navigate this 40 days journey, I will try to post everyday, my key take aways for each chapter.
So for Day 1 (Dec 26 2018)
- Joy does not depend on outer conditions of your material life but rather on the inner

condition of your mental life.
-Joy is the result of something strikingly simple, thought not necessarily easy, consistently thinking of joy producing thoughts
-Think about what you want and not what you don't want
-Release the need to hang on thoughts that haven't worked well for you

That's it! Let's see again tomorrow.

No talking please

There are times that I want to talk endlessly and there are times that I just want peace and quiet.

Pilot

I loved it when the first episode of a series is always titled as "Pilot". Maybe because it gives me the feeling that the show runners do not have an idea as well how good their first episode would be. hehehe. That it does not deserve a good title other than "Pilot".

When I was young, I had dreams of course :). I wanted to have a career, since being a doctor and a lawyer seems very far off due to financial reasons and I am not that quite confident that I am intelligent enough to be either so I remembered having daydreams of being a successful writer. Writer for a magazine,newspaper, a novelist what have you. Just a writer. Of course when you are young, you are very idealistic, you don't think of things if that will make you financially stable or if your mother will actually approve. My mother who is actually my aunt ( she is probably turning on her grave right now if she can read this right now, because she hates it when I don't refer to her as mother) would encourage me "to follow my dreams" when she is in a good mood but when she is not, she would insist that I take up Education as a course in college so that I could be a teacher, which she says is an easy job to get.