It's the eve of my birthday and instead of my husband (not expecting much from my kids) making ne feel good. He actually made me feel worse.
He knows I have mental health issues, I am not yet officially diagnosed but he knows I have been seeing a psychologist. Though quite knew he knows I am trying to help myself but instead of helping he emphasizes that I am crazy and actually tells my daughter that I act like that because I am crazy. Don't mind her she's crazy is what he would often say.
It is really a mistake to get married just bealcause somebody impregnated you. The love is just not there. Maybe at first. But eventually, he becomes a father ( which is a good thing) but is no longer a husband. And when I tell him that he simply tags me as selfish and a bad mother.
How can I be mentally healthy if I have to live with someone like that everyday for the rest of ny life? I have begged him several times to leave. Because before its always me who leaves so end up with unnecessary expenses and just end up returning anyway because I have nowhere to go.
He knows I have mental health issues, I am not yet officially diagnosed but he knows I have been seeing a psychologist. Though quite knew he knows I am trying to help myself but instead of helping he emphasizes that I am crazy and actually tells my daughter that I act like that because I am crazy. Don't mind her she's crazy is what he would often say.
It is really a mistake to get married just bealcause somebody impregnated you. The love is just not there. Maybe at first. But eventually, he becomes a father ( which is a good thing) but is no longer a husband. And when I tell him that he simply tags me as selfish and a bad mother.
How can I be mentally healthy if I have to live with someone like that everyday for the rest of ny life? I have begged him several times to leave. Because before its always me who leaves so end up with unnecessary expenses and just end up returning anyway because I have nowhere to go.
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